DREAM ?

its 12:19 and i still cant sleep,
magic isnt it?? i think today is the most tiring day of the week but i still cant sleep
am i thinking about The Cat again??
OhMyAllah,,
please calm my mind,,
seriously !!
he allllwaaayyys stuck in my head,
even when i pray i think about him and pray for him,,
NO of course i dont love him,
i just admiring his personality:)
hes so cool!
i dont know why but i keep dreaming such impossible things happen like
we were in a camp,
first day@night
i was forced to take an order from a cruel seniour,
that seniour ask me what am i afraid of?
i said i dont want to answer because if i told u people u are going to trick me,,
then,
i dont know where a fat guy come from and that guy told allllll the prople in that camp that im scared of DARKNESS and being ALONE and RIVER (and its true), before that guy ends his stupid talk, i stood up and said " heyyy!! im afraid of God first!!". andandand the seniour pull my hand to the front and he said "i know just what to do with this girl". i already scared at that time, so i look at the guy whom i admire, he said SLOWLY ill save u later,
so now is the punishment,
i was sent outside under a tree ALONE in the DARKNESS,
at that time i was feel like crying and hoping that soneone come and stay beside me,,
well, my hope come true, i was crying at that time and that is when he came and hold my hand and hug me, or maybe im the one who hug him?? hahaha ya i know its haram but its just a dream i wont do that in real life ,
i was crying on his shoulder and he whispering to me "dont cry im here for  u"
oh yeahh i was happy
next day@morning
the camp schedule was saying its mandi sungai time...
allll of the campers are joining accept one girl and that girl is me :0
hehehe
suddenly a big rock from the waterfall falling and a lot more water are coming,
all of the campers are already at land accept for one boy and that is the guy i admire,,,
everybody are worry especially me,
without thinking of my safetiness, i jump into the river and try to save hin from drowning, i dont know since when i can swim really good and i take him to the land, yaa again i was crying and hoping he wont die, he was still unconcious, i was like " oh no please dont be dead! wake up wake up!!" a lot more tears are falling and a drop of tears fall right through his heart ( which i dont know how) he suddenly wake up like "*coughshard and i hug him and he said thank you love! i still crying or maybe that is just the air sungai just now



hahaha tragic isnt it??!!
yaa i know i shouldnt be way to honest about myself, but if not to my blog then, to who i must share my story ??

i got no best friend,imaginary friends or 'the special one' in my life,
and im not crazy yet to talk with myself :)

theres a lot more dreams to tell, maybe later...

i already sleepy,,

nights, assalamualaikum ;) i just wanna share stuff,,,
dont take it hard and chill